sassyblu: (toooo.muuuuuuch.sominexxxxxxxx)
somewhere I must find the energy to leave the apartment this weekend.  This week has been extremely draining.  The stress level around the office is sky high and I've been working 2-3 hours every night while I watch TV.  Granted, its mostly because I'm bored by the TV but even so... draining.

Last night was fun... I saw the Noisettes play at Ameoba with Joey.  Good stuff.  We ate at my favorite peruvian restaurant.   Inca Cola?!?  Strange and delicious.  Then I went home, took my muscle relaxant and collapsed.  I made a vague attempt to watch Capote, but I fell asleep before the previews were finished. Sorry, PSH, you'll have to wait till tonight.

I need new pants, as most of mine are tooooo big.   my spoon is toooooooo big. If anything can motivate me to leave the apartment, it's

oh fuck my ikea night stand just broke.
sassyblu: (drop dead red)
has it really been 6 weeks?  time flies.  so much has been going on...lots of travel, some exciting stuff at work and a car accident. wheeeeeeeeeee.  sadly, i have no time to do a real entry.  crazy week.

miss you guys!  smooochies.
sassyblu: (balancing cake and bread)
I've had a pair of new glasses for a year and a half. tonight, I put them on for the first time.  I can see more clearly, but  the storm clouds are still gathering.  I've made so many mistakes this week.  Little mistakes, super sized mistakes and everything in between.  The big scoreboard in the sky reads Home team, 0. Away team, 100.  My emotions are bouncing between despair and indifference and somewhere in between.  It's the in between that's a killer.  I like knowing where i stand, even if it's at the bottom.  But personally and professionally, it's all a big jumble of uncertainty.
Sometimes I think about the professor catching me after class and telling me I was talented and I should consider doing it for a living. It doesn't matter what "it" is, rather, it's the feeling I got when he told me this.    The feeling that I had a place in the world, that I belonged somewhere.  It was powerful and scared the shit out of me and I promptly told him I had no interest in "it".   It was an easy way out, out of something I might have been good at. 

at times I feel that same way about my life now, like I've finally found "it".   but mostly, I'm living in a big grey zone of uncertainty.  I feel lost without that professor pointing the way for me, telling me "this is IT" .  And then I feel dismayed that I need that type of reassurance.  Why can't I believe in myself?  Why isn't that enough?
sassyblu: (worry?)
Another attack!  I guess the smurfs got tired and their friends, the Twinges stepped in. 
sassyblu: (worry?)
my router log says Smurf Attack.  this can't be good.
sassyblu: (coffee)
at a certain point, when is enough enough?

email accounts: 4
livejournals: 3
dating/meeting accounts: 3
IM accounts: at least 3 (I've lost track)
forum accounts:  at least 6

what are your stats?
sassyblu: (operator?)
The Playstation
Random Gentle Sex Master (RGSMf)

Easy to turn on. Hard to beat. You are The Playstation.

You're a nice girl, and you have lots of sex. It's therefore highly likely that you're attractive, and you're certainly outgoing & friendly. Plus, this healthy physical attitude of yours indicates deeper emotional well-being and stability. Unheard of. When guys dare to dream, they dream of you.

You don't get attached too easily, and, to wit, you're not necessarily looking for something long-term right now. That's a bigger asset than you know. Though, physically speaking, you're open to anything, you're keeping your emotional side well-protected. This means there won't be a lot of wreckage to clean up whenever you decide to settle down.

Your exact opposite:
The Priss

Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer
In the meantime, the men you share yourself with actually respect you. Like them, you enjoy sex for its own sake and don't need any other validation for pleasure than pleasure itself. Hopefully, you have the good sense to blow off anyone who thinks less of you for that. Usually, this is the part of the description where we offer some life-correcting advice, but honestly, we can't think of anything about you we'd change. Keep on fucking, partner.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Mixed Messenger

CONSIDER: Anyone else

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: sassyblu
sassyblu: (drop dead red)

the clip of Not David Bowie is divine.  DIVINE!

sassyblu: (aya_snow queen)

Conversation with my four year old niece today:

Her:  How old are you?
Me: 30 years old
Her:  You're that old and you're still alive?
Me: *jaw hits floor*
Her: how do you do that?
Me: It's not easy, but we manage!

It cracked me up for hours.

sassyblu: (balancing cake and bread)
Happy birthday [profile] fastrada!!!!
sassyblu: (truly outrageous)
Does anyone have a link with the 'candid discussion" btw Bush and Blair at the G8 summit?
sassyblu: (mucca)
Vet bill $132.  They gave her some active charcoal to prevent bacterial infection... cause apparently menstrual blood is full of bacteria!?!??   That sounded kind of bogus to me but I wasn't about to tell the vet not to take every possible action to make sure doggie is OK.   In general, I think these dogs are bored... their owners are much more active than me and probably play with them a few hours a day.    I guess I'm going to have to suck it up and start taking them for walks if I'm going to survive the next 8 days.  It'll be good for me....right??

Oh,and I don't get myspace.   It seems really, um, juvenile... but maybe I am missing something.  I got this message from "john" who seemed nice and friendly and normal...but when I went to his profile he loooked completely different than the photo in his message.  what the hell is that about?  

today: meeting, exercise, visit mom and see ava and lorren
sassyblu: (drop dead red)
wonderful, just fucking wonderful.... one of the dogs i am housesitting chewed up my used pads and ate a couple used tampons.  Not only is it disgusting to clean up, but now I have to worry about this damn dog's health.  This has happened once before, with another family I house sit for and the dog just pooped out the tampons the next day.  however, with the weekend starting tomorrow, I am so tempted to take it to the vet and leave it over the weekend....this dog is a spoiled asshole anyways and i would be happy to get rid of it for a few days.  ahhhhh!!!!   I can't fucking believe this.  
sassyblu: (tea or me)
Champaign is getting a Flattop Grill.  yippeee!!!!
sassyblu: (my secret lovers)
I just took an online test for word, excel and powerpoint... good grief, my powerpoint skills are WEAK.  The question that most confused me was on the excel test... it said to "change the active cell to F4".  I couldn't figure out what the hell it meant.... finally, light bulb!  They just wanted me to click on that box, thereby making it 'active'.  Sheeeeet!
sassyblu: (life in plastic)
My bank balance after I got $20 from the ATM this morning:  $666.92

In non-freaky news, I finally got a callback about the $34000/year job, phone interview set for Thursday.

Overall it's been a good day!  go 666!

edited to add:  this is an advert from craigslist for an accounting position, now if i could find a job that requires BigBoobs!

We are in need of an accounting bookkeeper very urgently. If you know TRAMS. Check out the accounting program we are using at the web agent bookkeeping software that will be great. Our software is specific for travel agency day to day operations. We will also except Quicken and Quickboobs software.
sassyblu: (Default)
First birthday present of the day from CNN:

Milosevic found dead in cell

The world is a little less evil.
sassyblu: (jem wink wink)
dearest nose please stop running so I can catch my breathe.


i'm all kinds of crazy taxi goodness. i *heart* my new toy.
sassyblu: (operator?)

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Not strip for free anymore.

Get your resolution here

sassyblu: (bilbao)
damn, the travel bug just bit me. hard. January and Puerto Vallarta cannot come soon enough. And I just found some great flights to Spain. Las Fallas is calling me. Turning 30 and seeing lots of shit set on fire would be quite fitting :)


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